Fear Has Kept Me From Writing.

Yet with all this fear I will write. I will take action.

I left a career as a Nurse in January of 2020 right before the outbreak of COVID.

I’m still sort of pinching myself because who would have known?

Without any clear foresight under the warm California sun of late January, in the early afternoon this inner knowing and overwhelming dread in the pit of my stomach spoke to my spirit.

It seemed like a crazy idea, but it felt like if I didn’t leave this career it would take a heavy toll on my physical health.

I had just moved to California a few months previous at the end of 2019. I’d always felt drawn to California. I was estatic that I was following my heart and driving out to California.

As a native New Yorker, originally from NYC, but also residing upstate NY, I’ve always dreamed of travel and adventure. As a child you’d find me asleep and in the early hours of the morning with decades old National Geographic Magazines that my mother had collected stashed on bookshelves, stuffed under my pillow or laying across my chest.

Thinking will not overcome fear but action will. W. Clement Stone

January 2020 without a clear clue of what I was going to do going forward I sent and email to the hospital I worked at in Los Angeles and to my travel nursing company telling them that I would not be returning and that I wished them the best. I explained to them that this career was not bringing me satisfaction in my life.

However, this last year I has been a deep dive into true happiness.

I have dreams of traveling the world and writing while I do it. I think many of us have that dream. There is a little child in me that wants to run and see the world. I want to run the beach and swim in the oceans. I want to see the rain forests and savanna’s of Africa. I want to eat Turkish cuisine and learn how to dance Samba in Brasil.

Fear has kept me from writing. Fear that I am not good enough. The fear has been that no one will want to read what I have to say.

To writers who are afraid.

• Write and keep writing.
• Look fear in the face and make it your friend.
• Send fear a lot of love. We neglect him so much.
• Fear is a teacher. Fear is not something we should be afraid of.
• When you feel too anxious or overwhelmed by fear I recommend something called breath of fire.
• Keep writing even if you dont submit to a publisher

So what comes next?

Learning how to write, of course.

I hope to see your beautiful spirits here on Medium and other platforms.